What I want to say

Feel like drinking tonite. & singing at KTV pub.

But little lazy on second thought. Don’t mind lazing home & get glue to my drama dvds also. Night swim be great too. What shall I do mm. Upcoming week be busy with my theory test & band stuffs. I hope to form up my band real soon. 真叫人不放心. All mind on band now. After that, trip to Bintan & HK for short break before any work again I love my family. Dunno what my papa is thinking…烦 Pity my mama, but sometimes her fault is… she’s just too nice. Hope things will work out by itself for my sister & her husband. Marriage’s rocking. My bro-in-law, his mind seem quite disturb cannot focus, suffers from insomnia, repetitive weird behaviors, mood swing, etc. Need to visit them this wkend, check him out.

我只喜欢过两个人, 到目前为此. 然后第三个, I tried but didn’t work out. I ended it in a week time thinking better not to waste any more of each other time. 现在对一位某人有little feel.. hope can get to know him more .. seeing him makes me happy. He always makes me laugh out ‘loud’ :)

虽然放下了但想起时, 对失去的第一段恋情真的感到很痛心. 如果可以的话我真的是想要好好的珍惜和永远保留’住’的. 第二个我喜欢的…他是我不小心喜欢上的. He ‘came’ at the time when I was most… vulnerable. He cheered me up. His care was comforting & deeply appreciated. 2nd one, perhaps not fated enough, we didn’t end up to together. Glad he finally found his ‘happiness’ announcing to get married soon. Was upset for a little while when I knew it, but ok, probably just not meant to be - for us.

I also hope to have someone to share things with. But, will I get to meet my right one too I know my temper, myself very well.. sometimes, I jus felt it to be so difficult to have this somebody in my life. I don’t mind not having one if I can’t find a suitable one becoz I rather don’t have one, then to have one whom not suitable & make my life unpleasing & difficult on the basis just to have a companion. Nope, that WILL never be me. Furthermore, loneliness has been made my friend. I can abandon the wrong man for ‘my friend’.